H is for hawk / Helen Macdonald.

Includes bibliographical references (pages 285-297).

Part I. Patience -- Lost -- Small worlds -- Mr White -- Holding tight -- The box of stars -- Invisibility -- The Rembrandt interior -- The rite of passage -- Darkness -- Leaving home -- Outlaws -- Alice, falling -- The line -- For whom the bell -- Rain -- Heat -- Part II. Flying free -- Extinction -- Hiding -- Fear -- Apple day -- Memorial -- Drugs -- Magical places -- The flight of time -- The new world -- Winter histories -- Enter spring -- The moving earth.

"As a child Helen Macdonald was determined to become a falconer. She learned the arcane terminology and read all the classic books, including T.H. White's tortured masterpiece, The Goshawk, which describes White's struggle to train a hawk as a spiritual contest. When her father dies and she is knocked sideways by grief, she becomes obsessed with the idea of training her own goshawk. She buys Mabel for £800 on a Scottish quayside and takes her home to Cambridge. Then she fills the freezer with hawk food and unplugs the phone, ready to embark on the long, strange business of trying to train this wildest of animals. ... Destined to be a classic of nature writing, H is for Hawk is a record of a spiritual journey--an unflinchingly honest account of Macdonald's struggle with grief during the difficult process of the hawk's taming and her own untaming. At the same time, it's a kaleidoscopic biography of the brilliant and troubled novelist T.H. White, best known for The Once and Future King. It's a book about memory, nature and nation, and how it might be possible to try to reconcile death with life and love."--Dust jacket.

Samuel Johnson Prize for Non-Fiction, 2014.